I learned the method of meditation, then bowed to Allah Almighty and prayed. Then I started meditation. I was very anxious on the very first day of meditation before starting it. As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt difficulty in breathing and opened my eyes; my whole body was sweating heavily.
I went through an event, which traumatized me mentally. The accident that had robbed me of tranquility and peace of mind, it would make my heart quiver whenever I recalled it then my appetite used to be disturbed and I used to be insomniac. …… it was cold and dark night, our taxi was going fast in rain towards our home. My wife and a 2year old daughter were also along us. We were returning after attending a marriage ceremony, our home was still 3 to 4 kilometers when some armed masked men stopped our car. They opened the door of the car and a masked man snatched nazo and spoke in harsh tone , “hurry up and give whatever you have at once” they kept on searching me and took whatever cash and jewelry we had…. May be they wanted or were expecting more but they got very little, therefore they got very angry. When they were snatching locket from my wife’s neck, I stopped them and one of them struck the handle of revolver on my head. My wife is soft natured and she was in shock, nazo was wailing…. I screamed,” Return our daughter”. The masked man who had snatched nazo dropped her in frenzy, when the head of the 2 year old child collided with foot path, it got injured bluntly, nazo’s scream was heart wrenching. We urgently picked up nazo, she fainted and her head was bleeding. I requested the taxi driver, “Brother please takes us to the hospital”. He was a pious man and he took us to the hospital. Allah blessed us and nazo was cured soon. My mind was affected badly by this traumatic incident. I used to be scared while travelling. I started suffering from headaches, leg pains and mood swings. When depression aggravated, I took leave from my job. One day our neighbor came to meet me. He was good a good acquaintance of mine. He asked me about my health and I complained about headache and feeling ill. He asked me, “When did it start? I gave him a vague reply. He insisted that, one of my friends is a doctor, come with me and we shall have your checkup tomorrow…after a while of hesitation I agreed to go to the doctor with him. He took me to the doctor the next day. This doctor treats psychologically and alternative methods of treatment in which meditation have a particular role. My neighbor has also done a lot of research on meditation. He came to know my condition in one sitting and advised meditation. I was surprised to hear about meditation from him. I excused to the doctor and said, “Look doctor, I don’t believe in this mode of treatment”. The doctor said, “you have come with my friend, therefore I am suggesting the right treatment in the very first visit. If you ask me the truth, I am seeing meditation to be the solution of all your problems”. I asked the doctor, “How can meditation help in psychological rehabilitation of a patient?” the doctor smiled and said, “You already know that in the human body, the gastric, hepatic and intestinal systems are of extraordinary importance. In the digestive system the food first passes reaches the stomach whose walls make the food soft by its peristaltic movements. If due to some disturbance, this mechanism is disturbed and the food is not digested the way it should be, it becomes toxic and collects in intestines in such copious amounts that the intestines cannot get rid of this toxic waste with natural peristaltic movements, the health of a man becomes targeted by various problems. This system is perceived to be effected by thoughts. The human mind collects different updates and information from the environment in daily life. Then all this information is analyzed in the conscious mind, a link is formed between various components, it is compared with past experiences and all the components which are not related to our targets, problems or interests are deleted from the conscious mind considering them as junk.
But, when some out of ordinary worries and painful experiences provide such information to the subconscious mind that it is unable to annihilate the analysis, it just pushes it in the memory in the same condition. Since these thoughts and emotions have not gone through the process of analysis and annihilation therefore their energy persists even though it is deep down in the memory. That is why this stuff in the mind raises its head during the waking period in the form of psychological symptoms and this makes a person a victim of depression and other psychological diseases. Meditation cures this situation in such a way that with the focusing of concentration, it freezes the conscious mind and gives an opportunity to the subconscious mind to be active which brings the person at peace psychologically and the symptoms of the ailment subside.” I learned the method of meditation, then bowed to Allah Almighty and prayed. Then I started meditation. I was very anxious on the very first day of meditation before starting it. As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt difficulty in breathing and opened my eyes; my whole body was sweating heavily. The pressure had build up instead of subsiding. Somewhere in my mind I could hear it that meditation is not the solution of my problems. I stopped practicing meditation for some time. My leaves were about to end but my psychological condition was the same rather the depression was aggravating. One day a thought came in my mind before going to sleep, why not try meditation once more, may be things will improve. During meditation I imagined blue lights showering over me, my mind felt light with the imagination of blue lights. My thoughts then again shifted to that incidence because of which I was suffering from severe depression. After sometime time a thought came in mind that Allah almighty burdens a human being as much as he can bear. The second day, the image of blue lights was formed earlier and 15 minutes passed quickly. During meditation whenever I remembered the incident I would pray oh Allah keep me and my family safe from all kind of calamities. This supplication would bless me with peace of heart. One day I had good concentration in my prayers, I had never been this attentive in my prayer before. With the help of continuous meditation of 6 months I obtained such a peace of mind and confidence which I may not be able to express in words but I feel that my energies have returned manifold. There is stability in my mood. Medical specialists say that if the depression is not of grave nature it can be treated with physical exercise, breathing exercises and meditation.
